Kyle POV


Author's Note: The song lyrics are from the song "You Wanted" More by Tonic. Disclaimers: are annoying neccessary, so here is it. Roswell is not mine!



Love is tragic, love is bold
You will always do what you were told

Destiny. I hate that word. A few months ago I could care less. Now it invades my thoughts every waking moment of the day. It's the bars of my own personal hell. Maybe it's my fault. Why do I fall for girls I can't have? And I know I'll never have her.

I can't remember quite when all of this happened. Maybe it was the time when we baked Canadian brownies for the Food Fair. I signed up to help with the fair to impress Shelly Hammond. I didn't even know what Canadian brownies were but it sounded good. We had fun baking them. It wasn't the first time I noticed her, but there was something different about that day. I got a date with Shelly but she wasn't the one I was interested in anymore.

When Tess moved in we had a very flirtatious relationship but over time we became friends. Friday nights we began this tradition were we watched silly horror movies. I liked spending time with her. We would talk through half of the movie. I never really watched a movie that way before. It was fun. Sometimes we would have our best conversations eating popcorn and sitting in front of the TV talking about something completely different. I learned about a close call with the FBI in Kentucky or why she loves Peanut butter and cheese on crackers so much. She learned about when I started picking out my clothes in the third grade after my dad hit an all time low with the clothes he used to lay out for me or my theory on 'post its'.

My dad once told me [find Valenti quote]. That may be true but I think it makes me love her even more. I knew she went out on dates with other guys but I knew they weren't that serious. Now I wondered why I waited so long. I got scared. I didn't want to lose our friendship. She is the best friend I have. I remember so clearly the moment everything came crashing down.

I felt off-center that day. I was not at one with myself. I remember sitting in my 7th period Physics class. It hadn't begun yet. Tess came through the door and came over towards me bubbling over with excitement. Her eyes shone. It made me smile. Then she told me that her and Max had gotten together. I remember telling her congratulations. She was so happy she failed to notice I was hurting inside.

Love is hard, love is strong
You will never say that you were wrong

I didn't think it would last. Evans was stuck on Liz for the longest time and anything he could have with Tess was an uphill battle. And Tess has been dreaming of Max since, well, forever. I thought maybe when she was actually with him he wouldn't live up to all the illusions she had of him in her head. But it wasn't like that at all. The first time I saw them together, I knew it was real. I could see it in their eyes. When they are together the energy they give off is unmistakable. And when they're apart, they still carry that strength with them.

For a time I was able to fool myself. Then something happened that changed things forever. There was another run in with the skins and we all fled to a warehouse.